Changes Bring Dependence

He will cover you with his feathers. He will shelter you with his wings. His faithful promises are your armor and protection.

Psalm 91:4

It has been a season of change for me. Its been a whole year of change in all reality. This past year has brought broken bones, the birth of our daughter, a new home, saying goodbye to our first home, lots of illness and health challenges, adjusting to a new diet out of necessity, changing home churches,and saying goodbye to some good friends. A year ago life looked completely different than it does today.

At times these changes were a joyful journey. I anticipated the birth of a daughter and got to experience feeling her move inside me. It also brought a bit of sadness knowing she would be the last kick I felt inside my womb; the bookend to my sweet family. We knew when we found out we were expecting that a bigger home was in our near future. It was both exciting and stressful to purchase a place our children would grow up in with a yard and space for the kids to run. It brought sadness saying goodbye to neighbors we loved and leaving the the little home that always had us close making memories. Last April I broke my foot. It was painful and debilitating to be on crutches for six weeks but I learned humility and great closer to family and friends who loved on me and helped me care for my kids during that season. Change can bring both the good and the bad.

However, the greatest lesson I learned over the past year was to seek God. I found that my organized, structured, and methodical personality had the rug pulled out from under my feet. I did not plan on breaking my foot, on getting pregnant so quickly with my daughter, on moving.

Sometimes when life does not quite go as we planned it's a season of intense spiritual growth.

Over the past year I was on my knees in prayer a lot and had my Bible in hand. Where did he want us to live? How were we supposed to be raising our children? What community would become our new church family? This season was a time of intense spiritual growth because the answers were not always clear and they were not always what I wanted. God and I had a lot of conversations about trust, seeking His will, and after a year long journey I have learned a new dependency on Christ. I cling to His promises, His word, His way because I trust it is best.

When we don't understand why life is heading in the direction it is we can always trust that God knows best.

Lord, give me a heart that seeks your will for my life. When I don't understand why change is happeneing, help me to come to you in prayer and study your word. Your promises are always faithful and your love will never fail. When life brings changes, good or bad, please remind me to seek refuge in you for it is there I will find shelter.

Amen